I wear a ring that says "FEAR NOT" as a reminder that God is everpresent with me. and as the song goes...i will fear no evil for my God is with me. I need to heed my own advice and 'fear not'. Its hard sometimes.

This last week at BLOC my heart was broken. Broken in a good way. if that makes any sense. I learned something about my self. it really made me realize how much i love the community. even the older boys that i don't really talk to. i learned that we often make judgements about the inner city community. as i watched a person get arrested for drugs and hugged his little son goodbye it tore me in two. i couldn't imagine seeing mt father arrested. he made a mistake. but i make mistakes too. he is able to have the gift of christ's forgiveness just like i do. and i pray one day he finds it.

"Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth." -Psalm 46:10

Be still and know that He is God. He is in control. I need not to worry.

i have learned that living in bitterness does not make life very enjoyable. replace that bitterness with the love that Christ commanded us to have and it makes a whole world of difference.

I am free.

where i am today, i never expected to here. they way i have felt God move, especially in the last few months and reassured me of that verse in Jeremiah, where it says, "plans to prosper you and not harm you." looking back on the places i have been and the things that i have gotten to experience through the 20 years i have been alive, there is no way God could not have been involved. He sure knows what he is doing. its funny when i think i have my live figured out and i know the direction that i am going head, God always seems to throw a curveball at me to reassure me that He is in control. Over the past few months God has revealed so much stuff to me about myself than in the past few years. it has been an awesome experience. God has molded me and sanctified me and the peace that is coming from reliance on God is making me a better person.