"for God is greater than our hearts and He knows everything." -1 john 3:20

It really hurt my feelings and i am not exactly sure why. i don't ever get mad hardly ever. but God knows me and that is all that matters. As scary as it seems sometimes, I find peace in knowng in this: Even when I don't understand myself, God knows EVERYTHING. God is greater than my heart, He knows what I am feeling, even when I don't, and I find comfort in that.

i can't be someone that i am not. I am created in the way God intended me to be. He made me the way i am to glorify Him. sometimes i struggle with who i am. sometimes i wish i had a different personality, i feel like i am not extroverted enough to do anything. but day by day...i am working towards accepting that i love who i am and who i am becoming. it is hard. it has brought me to the point of tears even writing this right now. i want my identity to be in Christ and to be known for loving and serving others and through that, that Jesus' love will be shown. i just want to love others. love others. love others. love others. that is my goal for my life. love others. love others. love others. my biggest struggle is that i don't feel like i am extroverted enough to do everything that i want to do, but i know that that is a product of my imperfect human thinking. i love people. i want to love people. GOD IS GREATER THAN MY HEART AND HE KNOWS EVERYTHING.

HOSANNA,

HOSANNA IN THE HIGHEST.

I have said this before, but one of the most beautiful things to me about being a follower of Jesus Christ is that He uses us despite our brokeness. I want to be used. I am broken. Funny how things work out. I hope to change the world somehow in my own little way. I don't know what that way that may be.

This summer was incredible. God is moving. I have been blessed with opportunities I do not deserve. This summer has been filled with so much joy and laughter and new relationships and fellowship. And how can I forget all the late nights and very early mornings. Worshiping God every night and hearing the Word. And hours and hours of driving. And never having time to eat or eating too much. Counting and rolling t-shirts. Rubber bands. air soft. Being extremely hot outside or freezing inside. Every moment was incredible and the Holy Spirit working through it all. My God is mighty to save.

Sometimes I need to be lead back to the foot of the cross. God is leading, I need to follow.